the worst

I might not be at VCU next semester i messed up in some classes and now i will be losing everything i worked so hard to get.  I thought that if i tried really hard i would just you know do good or something in the end.  turns out it didnt happen and now i dont kno what to do i guess it is what i deserve.  Wish me luck out there im going to need it.

Trust

Sometimes i dont feel trusted by those around me.  I put my heart into everything i do for people and feel that my work shows that and i feel that it shows my passion for the people i work with.  Lately it just doesnt feel like other people feel the same way i do.  I will continue to try and work hard but as of now i feel like all my effort has been put to waste.  You never know though maybe they will have a change of heart.

Tired

I am so tired and i want to sleep.  Sleep is a luxory and i cant wait to get a second to myself and be able to do what i want.  I want to just sit in my room and have nothing to do.  Watch TV and not hear my phone ringing and not having to go where i dont want to go i just cant wait to be corey again.  Its the little things that can make a person happy you know.

How I felt to be back

Today was a good day it was my first day back in classes and i was on time and i went to class on time and stayed awake and payed attention.  I have a refreshed feeling going into this end of the semester and hopefully it will carry out everyday and i will do well because i have a lot going on this semester and i cant wait honestly for it to be over.  i plan to be an RA next year and hopefully i will be good but i dont find out where until wensday wish me luck.

Yard Work

Today i spent some fun time playing in the yard.  I got to rake a huge yard and play in the leaves.  It didnt take that long but it did bring back those old memories of having to rake the yard.  Me and a cople friends made the best out of it.  After that we went to the basketball court and played ball for a while.  I have to say the wether was nice then i took a nap.  I had  fun day i would say so thats all folks.

Hey everyone to day is another busy day as usual.  I think im to the point that where i want to just enjoy the break with no complications.  But will that happen probably not i just cant wait for my life to finally settle down.  For me to have time to sit back and breath.  I want to take a long walk in thepark and listen to my ipod.  Maybe grab a drink or an ice cream cone.  I hope one of things will happen but who knows.  My mom is excited to see me when i go home on friday and i cant wait to see her either and my little sister.  They are my everything and im sure were going to have fun.  Her 13th birthday is coming up soon and we plan to do it big.  Hopefully she will like all of it.  From the lemo ride to the nice dinner and the hotal sleepover im sure she will.

Moving Day

I hate helping people move but unfortunatley i agreeded to do it.  this blog is one of pain, my back hurts and i have the worst headache.  I hate the fact that because im big people just think that i can move anything when honestly i cant. It was a long hard struggle but i did it and im proud of myself.  I did complete my task and i kept my word which is very important to me.

Realization sometimes means many things to many diffrent people.  To me it means getting my life in order and setting my own priorties straight and not go by all the bull shit in my life.  You eventually realize that you are in school for a reason and that sometimes your going to hit walls and detours and you cant stop.  I know what i want in life and messing up in school will take that all away.  Being a doctor is very important to me and i think if i spend the neccesary time i need to i can definitley do so.  I love all the things im involved in but its what comes first that we must decide to fix in life.  I am happy i made this decion and i appreciate the people i have in my life that push me forward even though im sure they have better things to do.

My Interview

I had my RA interview today and i definetly think it went well.  I answered all my questions straight forward and i think i made a good impression.  The lady who interviewed me was really nice i liked her alot. Hopefully she liked me the same i also went to court today and had my case dismissed i think it had o be my wonderful smile lol.  well other then that my day was not that eventfull.  Hope everyone missed me in class today.

Orginization

As i found out today how much i am not organized.  Something so simple as writing things down i have not gotten it done.  You know i think as a college student to many excuses are made from students because the thing is you have to do work and you have to show up to class and you have to want to learn.  Apart of me forgot that but i havent lost all common sense and what my mind is telling me now is that i need to get it together because if i dont i will lose what i have been working for for so long.  I have decided today would be the day i would stop making excuses and do what i had to do to get better.  I have took time to get my school work done and be a better student hopefuuly i have been sucessful at that.  I wonder if anybody else feels the same way i do. Well that was the overall concept of my day let me know how your day went let me know how your went.